Justa.dilemma

I'm 14 and my name is Emma, and I can't give too much away for reasons you'll see soon. On this website I just want to connect and chat to my fellow KatyCats, don't hesitate messaging me! My whole life I have been Physically, Emotionally, abused by my father. I was always hit and screamed at in public and by the age of 5 my mum bit the bullet and we ran away in the middle of my mother (this wasn't unusual) being belted and choked in front of me and my brother. half a year later I was in the same home I was tortured in, and my mother was left to care for my brother and I. It wasn't over, not nearly – for me the worst was yet to come. I was only young at the time, but I hated my father. I would have given everything up to get away from him and from a five year old that's big. I had to visit his house every second weekend, and to start with I didn't sleep over. Every time we would come home with red eyes and bruised skin, and as we got older (7 years old) it was decided that we would start to spend the night. The horrors of my life are things I don't want to discuss here, but I will get to the big bit that wraps Katy in. My brother had a Rugby game and didn't score a try so my father was mad. Mum bought me a puppy and she let me take it to the game as my dad had to come back to get something of his. Long story short my brother was locked and choked in a van and we were thrown on our heads onto the concrete multiple times. I'm 9 years old. And we're battling a case that happened nearly a year ago now. I had to speak in front of a court against a barrister, of you don't know that's the highest possible skill of Lawyer and the highest paid. Not only that but I have anxiety and post traumatic stress disorder so standing in front of my Dad in a courtroom against a barrister and Judge and numerous people who want to break me at the age of 9. Before going in, I was a wreck – shaking, crying miserable. My birthday was 5 days ago (my dad didn't seem to ever care about my birthday until a possible court date came up. I have only once received a birthday present from him, my brother has had some every year. My Das family is sexist as well.) and I was already considering suicide at 9 when a cake was brought out to me with Katy Perry on it. The only thing that kept me going was her music, her laugh her happiness in my darkest times I found her and loved her since that moment. So when I was in that courtroom, mum pulled out her phone and played roar and the whole world froze for a minute. I laugh and cringe about it now but I got up and danced and sung and was ok, out I went into the courtroom. I've still been battering for 5 years and a month ago we won. I am free. 30 / 6 / 17 My mum has spent every cent we own on court fees and are struggling to even buy groceries sometimes. We still sometimes can go to the beach and buy extras though. It's the night before the first day of holidays and I'm out of hell (highschool) and I'm scrolling on Instagram when I see a video from Myer and Katy is in it. I freeze and watch. Tomorrow morning, the day I knew Katy was touch downing in Sydney Katy was announcing something and they could take 100 people up to the top level. I woke up early and made a Scribbly as hell poster on the train. Katy isn't here for another 2 1/2 hours and I made it up to the top level on my own. There are a lot of press and a bunch of people are really tall but I squish up to the front and am bawling for two and a half hours straight I'm so excited A bunch of boring but interesting stuff is said and Katy comes out. I was melting. MY EVERYTHING IS STANDING IN FRONT OF ME. Announcements later she comes around to people down the runway and she turns to come to me when Paparazzi jumps out so she promised she'll talk to them and meet us. I told her a very light version of the story I told you here, unlike everyone else who got a selfie or a wave I got 2x kisses on my right cheek 1x Kiss on my left 3x hugs and a message I keep to my heart everyday with everything I do. My goal would be to meet her properly when I have earnt moment and talk to her in depth. I am going to the Sydney concert though! My family have all put in money to get me a seat. I would love to talk to all you lovely Katy Cats and you can find me on: Instagram : @justa.dilemma Twitter: @justadilemma__